I have heard the story many times in my life. The one from Genesis 22 where God tells Abraham to sacrifice his son. I know a common take away from the story is God’s provision, but God showed me something HUGE by showing me something small.
In the chapter Abraham saddles up his donkey, took two servants and his son to the land of Moriah. As the story goes when they arrive Abraham and his son kept going on to the top of the mount alone. Together they prepared the altar, and right before Abraham was about to make the sacrifice the Angel of the Lord called from Heaven telling him not to lay a hand on his son. Following that, God provided a ram for them to make their sacrifice to the Lord. I know that this story paints a beautiful picture of Christ and his sacrifice for us, but something I never saw before came in verse 5,
“And Abraham said to his young men, “Stay here with the donkey; the lad and I will go yonder and worship, and we will come back to you.””
A little back story, Abraham and his wife Sarah waited over 25 years for their son Isaac. They longed for God to fulfill His promise to them. In all my time on this Earth I come up just a few months shy of 25 years, and yet I have already felt the struggle of waiting on God’s timing. I can only imagine 25 years of waiting for one specific promise. Isaac was Abraham’s pride and joy. He was the gateway to God’s promise that he would be a father of many descendants. I am sure a good portion of his heart belonged to his son; a promise he desired for so many years. Now, in the midst of being asked to give up his son, for a purpose he did not know, he stopped and worshipped the Lord.
Just before, I had met a guy I really liked. I was so hopeful maybe this time it would finally work out. I was getting my hopes up, and I was off in the day dreamiest of day dreams about what my future would look like. How I would finally have those #couplegoals I longed for so much. But as my story went, it didn’t work out. I was so disappointed. For as long as I could remember I have wanted to fall in love and be a wife. I used to ask for wedding magazines for birthdays and Christmas, and you best believe my wedding Pinterest board was one of the first ones I created!
I began asking God why?! Why allow me to meet someone that would get my hopes up. Why? Why let my heart get excited? Why allow my desires, that I was trying so hard to suppress, flare back up and be the prime battle in my heart again?
But that small statement ran through my mind. I thought, what kind of faith did Abraham have to not only trust God with his desires and hopes, but also worship God in the middle of that trust? To give up what was most precious to him and stand before the Lord singing Him praises.
Then I heard God gently nudge me. Can you trust me? Can you stand before me and give me your desires? Your hopes and your dreams. Can you have faith that I will work all things out for the good? I slowly started to tell the Lord yes. As the teaching wrapped up we were going into a time of worship. Nothing I Hold Onto by Will Regan and the United Pursuit Band was played, and there in worship God reiterated His point.
“I lean not on my understanding
My life is in the hands of the Maker of heaven
I give it all to you God, trusting that you’ll make something beautiful out of me
I will climb this mountain with my hands wide open
There’s nothing I hold onto”
I know God was calling me to let go of control I didn’t even really have, and to trust. Holding on to nothing, but His truth.
Maybe you struggle with the same desire? Maybe it is a specific job or the hope of a child. Whatever the desire is, will you allow God to have it? Will you relinquish control into the hand of the One who created you, and knows your future to the most specific of details?
” For the Lord is good; His mercy is everlasting, and His truth endures to all generations.” -Psalm 100:5
It is not easy, and it is a constant battle. But letting go is the best gateway to living free. I hope by Abraham’s example of faith we can all be encouraged to take our desires to God, talk them out and hear God out!
Thank you for reading!
“Life is best served with a hot cup of coffee and a whole lot of grace!”